Today, I had a cigarette. My 3rd since March. (I’m only pretty sure it’s only my 3rd.)
Of course, smoking is generally a bad thing, that can become a most terrible thing, especially seeing as how I have athletic aspirations for the future. But I felt the outside air when I walked my dog, and I thought “God, what a perfect day! It would be a good day for a cigarette!” So on this 75 degree Chicago day, as the sun was setting at 6:50 for some really nice imagery, I had a cigarette. Light menthol Natural American Spirit. Mmm mmm.
Maybe it was the tobacco, but it felt like my whole day just slowed down. I was able to take in the air, the sight, and just kinda appreciate the moment. This was really good change from how fast the work week flies by, being super busy and productive for “the man.”
And normally, I feel especially bad after having a cigarette. It causes cancer. My cousin and aunt died of smoking induced cancer. Bad for respiration, extra stress on the organs. Elevated blood pressure in my family with a history of hypertension. In the past, smoking has caused me some guilt.
Another thing is, I believe my family has addictive personalities all around. We all drink at least a little, pretty much nightly. As you can see, I can go a full 4-6 months, and still get a sudden urge for a cigarette. I have to fight them off all the time.
So, after having this one, I was able to tell myself that it’s okay. Just having one for the feel of it a small handful of times per year is not bad.
But at the pace I’m smoking, is it really all that bad? Can’t be, right? I run the next day. Workout generally a lot.
I would actually appreciate some fitness and medical buffs letting me know if there ARE any side effects of having one cigarette every few months. Are my chances of cancer still elevated? Does it greatly hinder my cardio? I’d love to hear a few cents about that.
So. Well. Whenever and whoever is reading this, please enjoy your evening. Take care. *thumbs up.*